Fathers & Daughters

My dad is going for quite a major surgery soon, and I'm really worried.

Whilst I was growing he was one of those stoic dads, who show a really tough exterior, and being a teacher doesn't help the situation much either. And simply because everyone that is human comes with their own flaws, I shall not dwell in them but as far as my dad is concerned he is very much human. Somehow when we were growing up it's like we never knew him as anything other than a father, he showed us only one dimension of him as that person -- it's rather like a designation, and we didn't really get to know him as anything other than what he has shown us.

But as age catches up and with every increase in digit, he grew to be gentler & mellower. The joy in his eyes whenever he plays with my Niki, and how he lights up whenever she calls him grandpa. Yes, even the most toughest of parents can't defend themselves against the charm of a 3 year old :-) Now I see him as more than just a father to me & my sister, I see him as a husband to my mother, a grandfather to Niki, as a father in law to Vicky, someone who is not indestructible, someone who can feel happiness and joy and yes, pain. I see him as a person..

And even when he tells me not to worry, I can hear the worry in his voice, and I can't help but be worried eventhough I keep telling him to think positive and be optimistic in his state of mind which will be much help when he goes for his surgery. I know.

Too many daughters regret not having gotten to know their father very well, I don't want to be one of them. All I can is I'm really trying my darnest, it's difficult sometimes.. it just is...

Right now I just need to understand the reality of what is happening, to be understood mostly but I know that I need to face this obstacle in life, and I have to be strong for my father. Right now, he is counting on us his family to be his pillar of strength. And yes, your prayers will help.